We have a date

After a little begging and of course a few tears, I got an earlier date for my surgery!!!! Next Tuesday, January 6 is the day. I will be having a hysteroscopy- it is a pretty routine outpatient surgery and I should only miss two days of work. My fertility specialist will be the one performing the surgery- the same one that did my laparoscopy last year so I am confident that he will be able to get in there and figure out what is going on and fix it. Once I have the surgery, I will be put on estrogen pills for 4 weeks to aid in the healing and then we should get the green light to start again. Thanks for all of your prayers regarding this situation. It has been a rough few days here for us with this news and a few other things we weren't quite expecting. But, we will carry on and not let this get us down. Thanks for all of the prayer pages as well- they definitely add a light in these dark days. A few people have asked for a reminder on the number, so here it is again- 616.772.0110.

Also, I have added my new theme song for your enjoyment. On our due date, I received a CD entitled Valley Songs- it was given to me by a friend who had lost her daughter a year before. I absolutely love the CD and my favorite song is number 5 - Beauty From Pain by the Superchicks. I have found myself saying the lyrics over and over the last few days almost as a prayer that I will find beauty from this pain someday. I hope you turn your mute off and listen- it really is a great song.

"Beauty From Pain"

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night

And then the darkness surrounds me

I know i'm alive but i feel like i've died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made

I try to keep warm but i just grow colder

I feel like i'm slipping away

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,

Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best i can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though i can't understand why this happened

I know that i will when i look back someday

And see how you've brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,

Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

Here i am, at the end of me

Tryin to hold to what i can't seeI forgot how to hope

This night's been so long

I cling to Your promise

There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, i still will remain

After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today,

Someday i'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain