For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you

when I was made in the secret place,

when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;

all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Psalm 139:13-16

 

I am trying hard to remember that God is in control of this pregnancy,  My anxiety level has been extremely high lately.  I know that it is because we are approaching week 23 and that is when my water broke with the girls.  Everyone tells me not to worry since I had a perfectly fine pregnancy with Grant, but I know better.  I know one good pregnancy does not guarantee another and so I worry.  Every little feeling or lack of movement makes me worry.  Every Wednesday night as J heads to golf and I lay on the couch, I replay July 16, 2008 over in my head and then I worry.  Unfortunately, I will never get the chance to have a care free pregnancy and that makes me sad.  I just wish I could enjoy all of this and stop worrying so much!