Prayer

Tomorrow is the 2 month birthday of Brooke and Alexcyn. Somedays I can't believe it has already been two months because it seems like just yesterday that I felt my water break. Other days I think of all that we have gone through and can't believe it has only been 2 months. As everyone says, time heals. I don't fully agree with that statement becuase I know that my heart will always ache for the girls and I don't think it will ever heal from this loss. I do however agree that as time passes, the pain lessons. The pain is not as intense as it once was and I can even go a few days without having a breakdown. I still think about the girls constantly and I still have all the what ifs that go through my head all the time.


I signed up to get a Griefshare devotional in my email everyday. The one for today was exactly what I was feeling so I thought I would share it.



Sudden death is a shock to the system. It can often plunge a person into a crisis state. It's the suddenness of it that's just overwhelming. You don't have the resources. It stops you from your walk through life."

The sovereign Lord will remain by your side and will keep you from being destroyed by your emotions and circumstances. Claim His words in the Bible, and stand on the truth of His promises, regardless of what you feel and see. Cling to God with all you have. He will preserve your life.

In the following verse Paul said he felt great pressure and confusion, but God set a limit as to how far this would go: "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed" (2 Corinthians 4:8-9).

Savior of my life, I will say it again: The pressure seems unbearable, but it has not crushed me. I am utterly confused and overwhelmed, but I have not given up. My distress is constant, but so are You. I have been forcefully struck down, but I am not destroyed. Amen.